If you have a significant Chiron aspect natally as I do, the small centaur planetoid will occasionally speak up and remind you he is there and is not to be ignored. Consequently I am always on the lookout for information leading to a better understanding of Chiron and came across something astrologer Steve Judd wrote on the subject.
He has been looking for new ways to relate to the outer planets and Chiron:
“I find myself looking more and more at the ways in which we both sabotage and transform ourselves (Pluto), the ways in which we delude and spiritualise ourselves (Neptune), the ways we let chaos and stimulation into our lives (Uranus), and the ways in which we both empower and disempower ourselves (Chiron).”
I immediately felt “empower” and “dis-empower” were quite accurate when referring to Chiron and his impact in the natal chart. My natal Chiron is in Libra and not only conjoins my Libra Sun but is the Oriental or Scout Planet for the Sun – the first planet past the Sun in a clockwise direction. For me one-on-one relationships have taught many lessons about what both empowerment and dis-empowerment feel like in those relationships.
My need to give all in support of the man in my life in my twenties drastically interfered with my education and learning marketable skills. I dropped out of nursing school after one year to be closer to my boyfriend at the time who turned to be a real loser. Rather than using what I had learned to at least get a good position working in a doctor’s office, I went running off to work for peanuts in Yellowstone Nat’l Park for a summer in order to get back together with another lover. This was my pattern for many years with occasional periods of relative sanity. In other words, I regularly dis-empowered myself in my relationships. Stupid I know but that’s Chiron, he will keep after us until awareness seeps in and then the real work begins.
Because it is my Sun Chiron impacts, it was core identity stuff I needed to empower and it was through another very important relationship I began to do that. Around the time I turned forty, my father finally let me know he felt I was a capable adult and approved of the person I had become. It was only then I really buckled down and began to set boundaries and rules in my relationships to prevent giving too much of myself away. It took a few more tries to get it right before I was able to be a solid partner in an equitable relationship.
If you have Chiron conjunct, square or opposing personal planets natally, carefully consider if the part of you represented by those planets is where you feel empowered or dis-empowered. If it’s Mercury you may feel like you seldom express yourself well, Venus might mean feeling unable to show affection easily or if it’s Mars you may have difficulty asserting yourself in a clear, straightforward manner. The most important thing is recognizing and accepting those feelings in order to start the process of empowerment . . . and it IS a process because Chiron’s wounds are annoyingly slow to heal.
Sometimes we are able to make a real breakthrough around age fifty when we experience our Chiron Return but that doesn’t mean you can’t get started earlier. I do know a couple of astrologers who specialize in working with Chiron – Lynn Hayes of Astrological Musings and Joyce Mason of The Radical Virgo. Both are excellent astrologers and all around good people.