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Chiron/Neptune square natal Mercury – Poor Communications

Yesterday one of the mares belonging to the people we lease pasture to had to be put down because of complications foaling. It is always difficult to see this sort of thing happen no matter who the animal belongs too. I had to walk through feeling guilty because I noticed something off in her behavior but without a key piece of information – her due date – I didn’t immediately call the owner or the vet. Horses have a very narrow window of time to take action if they are having problems giving birth. If the foal isn’t on the ground in about half an hour/forty-five minutes, it’s not good.

Chiron was at a virtual standstill late yesterday when this all happened as are Neptune and Mercury, all three squaring my natal Mercury in Scorpio. The way I see it is between Neptune’s lack of clarity combined with Chiron’s ability to clarify through pain, my Mercury in Scorpio was lead astray and this was another wake-up call to pay attention to my instincts and intuitive hits. When we did call no one was in the house to answer the phone either, classic Mercury stationing. My SO finally drove over and found someone.

Working through guilt is one of those Scorpio things because we often feel we’re somehow responsible for lots and lots of problems we’re not. In this case, it’s likely the mare would have died in any case because she was carrying twins and they were all “jumbled up” in her womb to quote the vet. Between those conditions and the owners not informing me of the due date, I am digging myself out of the “guilt” pit. Even if I had tracked down the horse’s owner when I first twinged to a possible problem she may have opted not to have a C-section done anyway. It’s a very expensive procedure and they don’t have much extra money right now. It’s sad but these things happen . . . and life goes on as it always does.

Chiron and Neptune in Aquarius both bring messages of compassion and caring but tempered with the reminder to keep the broader picture in mind. Aquarius is best at considering the good of whole and guiding us to the ways and means to achieve it. These are the concepts I am choosing to take with me from this experience.
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Postscript [5-27-08]: After processing this experience for a couple of days I realized how insulated most of us who live in the industrialized countries around the world are from the realities of death and the natural cycles of life. Our first reaction is often “of course this can be fixed”! We are so used to being able to throw money and technology at problems with successful results, we forget that may not be the best response.
In this instance, if the owners had paid for the vet to do an ultrasound on the mare within the first trimester and discovered she was carrying twins, they likely would have opted to have them aborted. Live twin foals births are rare – too many things can easily go wrong. As it is, nature took it’s course and the kindness here was the vet putting the horse down before she suffered more attempting to give birth. The foals were already dead, her rectum had prolapsed and essentially she was already a goner.
This is Nature’s way of weeding out the poor quality genes from the pool. My Scorpio/Pluto side has wondered if the Western world has gone too far in saving damaged humans just because they can. It has crossed my mind Pluto’s journey through Capricorn may rectify this situation . . . but that’s another post!
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Please stop over and read Pat’s great skywatch post for the upcoming week starting off with Mercury and Neptune both turning retrograde: Weekly Forecast May 26-June 1st: Mercury Retrograde!
I just posted on Chiron in Miley Cyrus’s chart on Real Astrologers – really makes me think there is a lot going on behind the scenes with her.
This photo was taken the day before all this took place. The horses are gleaming with health in the sun and it’s the bay mare on the left who died.
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10 comments to Chiron/Neptune square natal Mercury – Poor Communications

  • mm

    It’s said but these things happen and life goes on as it always does.Chiron and Neptune in Aquarius both bring messages of compassion and caring but tempered with the reminder to keep the broader picture in mind. Aquarius is best at considering the good of whole and guiding us to the ways and means to achieve it. These are the concepts I am choosing to take with me from this experience. Yes.Neith, thank you for such a powerful post describing an event overshadowed by strong planetary symbolism. It is hard to accept sometimes that it is impossible for us to be all-seeing, all-knowing and to feel overly responsible as a consequence. It’s so easy to lose sight of the mystery of the bigger picture.As a sidenote, I was told once that Chiron can be a signficator of the passage from life to death (along with Pluto and Saturn). Certainly it was right there on the ascendant in my mother’s death chart ….

  • leslee

    Neith, how painful. Seems like the owners would have made a point of being around, given the near due date, but I suppose people have other demands on their lives. Very sad. At any rate, one of those things you have to let go of. I know having Mercury conjunct Pluto means I can have obsessive thinking, and Merc in Scorpio probably does the same. Finding deeper meaning in it, as you have, is a gift.

  • Devil Mood

    You illustrated the planet situation so well with the real event, or did the real event illustrate the planets? Same thing, synchronicity!I would feel exactly the same as you, but I’m glad you’re trying to get out of that pool now and detach a little.It’s funny because I’m writing my Venus in Aquarius post right now and also yesterday I did a quiz on “my philosophy” – it seems that my philosophy of choice is utilitarianism, which is basically Aquarius – focused on the greater good :)

  • casey

    oh, neith, so sad. cyberhugs to all involved.

  • neith

    Thanks all! I added a postscript on this situation to the post because it always takes my 12th house Merc in Scorp a few days to process deeply. When I was growing up on the farm, we dealt with this type of thing all the time [when my Sun was progressed in Scorpio]. And it was just a fact of life. The folks who own the horses brought more down and among those is an adorable foal with mom. We have great pasture and lactating mares can use all the high quality food they can get!

  • max

    As it is, nature took it’s course and the kindness here was the vet putting the horse down before she suffered more attempting to give birth. The foals were already dead, her rectum had prolapsed and essentially she was already a goner.Yeah. They could have had an ultrasound. They could have told you when the due date was. Etc.I don’t see any reason for you to feel guilty; I’ve shoveled enough horse shit, and nursed or to tried to nurse enough baby animals back to health (and failed many times) to know that guilt is only warranted when you make a mistake.max['Damn shame all that.']

  • Tseka

    Dearheart, i left a long post the other day and of course the blogger merc rx curse ate it. Your post was a poignant reminder of life – the rural life that is so connected. I thank you for sharing.Also it leaped into my mind that this was perhaps your chiron scout acting as it often does to focus the healing mind/heart.As always warm thoughts flowing outward.

  • Tseka

    Messing with bits and pieces of life is a good of putting it. I concur, life has more disturbed all around. I’m looking at the Neptune Chiron NN and the Mars SN….wonder what you think?Good news about Real Astrologers! this makes me very happy.

  • neith

    I don’t see any reason for you to feel guilty; I’ve shoveled enough horse shit, and nursed or to tried to nurse enough baby animals back to health (and failed many times) to know that guilt is only warranted when you make a mistake.Thanks for this, Max. You do get it. :-D

  • neith

    Hey tseka!! Good to see you again!Also it leaped into my mind that this was perhaps your chiron scout acting as it often does to focus the healing mind/heart.Now that makes sense! Chiron is so close to my Sun it’s not easy to sort out but this feels right to me. Straight to the heart of things as usual and some much need perspective. One of the many reasons it’s always a joy to have you stop by . . . :-DMessing with bits and pieces of life is a good of putting it. I concur, life has more disturbed all around. I’m looking at the Neptune Chiron NN and the Mars SN….wonder what you think?Pat has a great post up on Chiron and healing. The Healing PhenomenonMy feeling is many of us are in the tearing down phase before the renewal/rebuilding begins.