Chiron/Neptune square natal Mercury – Poor Communications
Yesterday one of the mares belonging to the people we lease pasture to had to be put down because of complications foaling. It is always difficult to see this sort of thing happen no matter who the animal belongs too. I had to walk through feeling guilty because I noticed something off in her behavior but without a key piece of information – her due date – I didn’t immediately call the owner or the vet. Horses have a very narrow window of time to take action if they are having problems giving birth. If the foal isn’t on the ground in about half an hour/forty-five minutes, it’s not good.
Chiron was at a virtual standstill late yesterday when this all happened as are Neptune and Mercury, all three squaring my natal Mercury in Scorpio. The way I see it is between Neptune’s lack of clarity combined with Chiron’s ability to clarify through pain, my Mercury in Scorpio was lead astray and this was another wake-up call to pay attention to my instincts and intuitive hits. When we did call no one was in the house to answer the phone either, classic Mercury stationing. My SO finally drove over and found someone.
Working through guilt is one of those Scorpio things because we often feel we’re somehow responsible for lots and lots of problems we’re not. In this case, it’s likely the mare would have died in any case because she was carrying twins and they were all “jumbled up” in her womb to quote the vet. Between those conditions and the owners not informing me of the due date, I am digging myself out of the “guilt” pit. Even if I had tracked down the horse’s owner when I first twinged to a possible problem she may have opted not to have a C-section done anyway. It’s a very expensive procedure and they don’t have much extra money right now. It’s sad but these things happen . . . and life goes on as it always does.
Chiron and Neptune in Aquarius both bring messages of compassion and caring but tempered with the reminder to keep the broader picture in mind. Aquarius is best at considering the good of whole and guiding us to the ways and means to achieve it. These are the concepts I am choosing to take with me from this experience.
Postscript [5-27-08]: After processing this experience for a couple of days I realized how insulated most of us who live in the industrialized countries around the world are from the realities of death and the natural cycles of life. Our first reaction is often “of course this can be fixed”! We are so used to being able to throw money and technology at problems with successful results, we forget that may not be the best response.
In this instance, if the owners had paid for the vet to do an ultrasound on the mare within the first trimester and discovered she was carrying twins, they likely would have opted to have them aborted. Live twin foals births are rare – too many things can easily go wrong. As it is, nature took it’s course and the kindness here was the vet putting the horse down before she suffered more attempting to give birth. The foals were already dead, her rectum had prolapsed and essentially she was already a goner.
This is Nature’s way of weeding out the poor quality genes from the pool. My Scorpio/Pluto side has wondered if the Western world has gone too far in saving damaged humans just because they can. It has crossed my mind Pluto’s journey through Capricorn may rectify this situation . . . but that’s another post!
This photo was taken the day before all this took place. The horses are gleaming with health in the sun and it’s the bay mare on the left who died.
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