Looks like a new start is in the works! Lots still to do in the background though.
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My Midheaven is in the Mercury ruled sign of Virgo and some of the closest aspects in my chart deal with the Midheaven and Mercury. My nodal axis with the North Node in the other Mercury ruled sign, Gemini is square the Midheaven – the closest aspect in my entire chart! That is followed by a semi-sextile from Pluto to the Midheaven and Mercury in Scorpio inconjunct Uranus in Gemini. Oh yes, Mercury is also conjunct my Ascendant – a little Mercury theme going on here? Why it take me so long to spot something so obvious in my own chart I’m not sure but this pattern pretty clearly describes the need for lots of stimulation and mental challenges; otherwise boredom raises its ugly head. It does make clear why working for Taurus bosses is not good for them or for me even though Taurus is the sign on both the cusp of my sixth and seventh houses. They love me because I’m a reliable, competent worker who shows up on time, every day. They are baffled and hurt because I usually walk after a couple of years when terminal boredom sets in. Now that I’m my own boss, there are these schizoid discussions with myself about how I can make changes in what I’m doing and how I’m presenting myself to keep things fresh and interesting. Probably what is inspiring me to drop the nom de plume of Neith and start using my actual name of Diane as well as developing another website with a new title and new look – Libra Seeking Balance. Next will come some radical changes to the type of services offered because doing long, detailed reports is not only detrimental to my wrists but too time consuming. There are some ideas floating around in the back of my brain about quick and dirty synastry evaluations – inexpensive and very tight. These changes swirling around are largely superficial because I’m one of those who believe the core person doesn’t change over time so much as become more clearly themselves. Some people like to rearrange their furniture in their homes; I like to rearrange my public persona and working online makes that soooo easy. Are there others with mutable signs on their Midheavens who have had similar experiences? What about those with cardinal and fixed Midheavens – does the idea of constantly fiddling with this feel very disturbing to you? Image: This was taken on New Year’s Day and I just loved the lighting effect on the horizon, hinting the fog was getting ready to lift.
My plan is to settle in and take each day as it comes and do my best not to get in a hurry. This will be an excellent time to catch up on unfinished projects and write all those thank you cards. This too shall pass! Saunter through the snow like these wild turkeys and make the most of life in the slow lane for a change, and please don’t shoot the messenger.
I have a question for those of you who read here with a strong Libra signature in your chart. It has to do with automatically moving to balance what’s happening or the recognition there is always another side to the story.
Over the years I have noticed if others are taking a strong stand on some issue, there is little voice that pips up in my head urging me to look at the opposing point of view. For instance, when I was reading all these glowing accounts of the wonderful changes Neptune conjunct Jupiter in Aquarius was going to bring us, my response was “Wait a minute! That reeks of to good to be true to me.” And I started blogging about making sure to be aware of expectations did not exceed reality. Lucy of Lucy Looking Upward coined what I still feel is the most appropriate term for the Aquarius stellium of Neptune, Jupiter and Chiron – The Clusterfuck of Doom! At the other end of the spectrum, reading the “sky is falling” posts made me feel the need to say “not likely.” I tend to do this my relationships too but have learned to step back from taking this too far. Libra can get so caught in being the balance wheel; they forget to look after their own needs, hopes and dreams. What I’m wondering is if anyone else deals with too. It seems to me the typical response to an expression of a strong opinion by one person is most people jumping right on board . . . like sheep in a flock. Links to Blogs of Interest Over the past few weeks I have had the good fortune to find a couple delightful but veeerrry different Aquarius bloggers hard at work in the astro-blogosphere. Sammie K of My Libra Rising is all elegance and beauty while Larry Fowler of Life, Spirit and Astrology whose Sun is conjunct Jupiter with Leo Rising has plenty of tales to share from his rich and varied experiences. If you wish to see beautiful images and read posts on fashion, beauty tips, fine food and other topics related to all things Libra, then stop by My Libra Rising. If you enjoy reading a well told story with astrology thrown in, then head over to Life, Spirit and Astrology. Larry is another of us past their Second Saturn Return and has lived a full and interesting life . . . which to his amazement, he survived. As always, stop by Donna Cunningham’s blog, Sky Writer, to read her tips and suggestions for dealing with the upcoming Mars retrograde in Leo. I cannot think of a better place to find out what we need to know to not only survive this transit but handle it with grace and style. Also know I’m not alone in being very thankful Donna decided to start blogging! Thanks, Donna for all your contributions! Just want to remind everyone to remember to check out the latest posts on Elsa P’s AstroDispatch, the single best place I know of to find what is happening in the astro-blogosphere.
Image: Winter is here and all the lovely, bright leaves of Fall have fallen. This is the same aspen grove I photographed earlier this fall . . . big change.
I met this Scorpio guy who a year older in age and many years older in experience. His father was career Navy (and made Admiral during the time I was seeing his son), so Mr Scorp grew up on military bases with enormous burdens of parental expectations. Even though I do not have good birth data for him, I do know his Moon was in Libra, flanked by Jupiter, Chiron and Neptune and he had a Mars-Saturn conjunction in Cancer which squared my Libra Sun. Since his dad was next to God, he transferred all his anger and resentment onto the women in his life – unacknowledged of course. At that time, Neptune was transiting my Ascendant and Pluto was sextile all my Scorpio planets PLUS Saturn in Aries was opposing my Libra planets. Throw in a relationship with a hellish mix of both Moons in Libra conjunct Neptune with the added “benefit” of his Jupiter-Chiron and you would not believe the projecting going on! Ugly, very ugly. He was probably the most manipulative man I have ever been around, building me with one sentence and tearing me down in the next. During the two years we were together on and off, I didn’t know what end was up most of the time. I remember him bragging about an incident during the time he was in a military high school in Georgia. He and a couple of friends talked some local girls into prostituting themselves for the guys at the school. They got the girls drunk and paid them $5 per trick. When he told me this I was so naïve I didn’t really understand what a horrendous thing it was. Now I do. Let’s see . . . what Plutonian stuff did I let myself in for during the course of this relationship? First, I gave him my virginity, then ended up pregnant (he told me he thought I wanted a child), had the uncomfortable experience of going to a doctor and being told I was pregnant (this was long before abortion was legal), then had a miscarriage. Oh yeah, also took a bunch of pills and attempted to commit suicide though all that resulted in was sleeping for quite awhile. I severed the relationship shortly after the miscarriage, telling him I never wanted to see him again and to stay out of my life. Looking back, it feels right to say the suicide attempt followed by the miscarriage effectively dissolved and cleared out all the hooks Mr Scorp had on me because I was never tempted to take up with him again. He did show up a few months later, then again about ten years later and the last time shortly after my Aries and I were married. Delusional to the bitter end. It was during the time Saturn was last in Libra, I finally made progress in healing the wounds left from this relationship. That was when I bought Donna C’s book, “An Astrological Guide to Self-Awareness” and starting using her affirmation for dealing with a destructive Plutonian relationship: “Bless name and release him to his higher good.” I went to sleep every night for the next few years repeating that mantra internally on the out breath. This is why I know it’s possible to heal and move on but the key is persistence and vigilance. Thankfully those of us with strong Pluto signatures in our charts are usually tenacious as all get out! Did I say I am very much looking forward to Sagittarius season?! After this post, the rest of you probably are too – just bear in mind this all took place over forty years ago and was instrumental in my becoming the person I am today. I still feel some anger towards this man and would not welcome him back into my life but it is history for me. Image: Had to add some beauty to this dark post and this is a photo taken by a friend of mine of the view from their house. Lucky them. |
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